Well, after a 5 year relationship, it's over. I've parted ways with my ex-mate and returned to live with my mother again in Nevada. I know I posted many times that I was going to leave and go back to Nevada. In fact it was sort of a running joke between my family here in Nevada.

But now it's no joke. It's a done deal. Now I owe my mother $1000. Ugh. But job prospects look a lot better here and I only briefly browsed one website. Been busy with other stuff mostly and I have to transfer my CDL-A license to Nevada before I apply for driving jobs.

So far things are ok. I had to rent a storage unit for the majority of my crap, but I squeezed it all into the smallest one they rent out, so that's cool. It's not costing much.

I kind of miss my ex, but I'm really relieved that who situation is behind me. I was pretty unhappy over the past 3 years, and it was getting nothing but worse. I'm sure a lot of people tell themselves after a break up "I don't think I wanna deal with a relationship ever again." I've had that on my mind a lot lately. Guess we'll see as time goes on.

Got my two remaining dogs with me, Jumper and Raider. They're doing pretty good. Mother has two dogs too, they both appear to lack any manners what so ever. Oh well. I'm hoping I won't be here for more than a month or two. Again, we'll see.

So I've noticed this new trend, well, maybe not so new, but it's growing increasingly prevalent and its getting on my nerves.

When did life change and people started moving the quoted text of an email below their reply, instead of posting their reply BELOW the quoted original message?

I mean, now when I see emails, it's just reply, followed by a giant blob of a thread of replies back and forth.

Back when I started using a form of email, called FidoNet, we typically snipped portions of the original message and then post a reply section below it, then another snip, more reply. So the reader could easily tell what every part of the reply was referring to. Even today, on every forum I've participated in or at least read continues this tradition, but not email.

Now, ok, this whole new thing of just dumping the entire original message below your reply wouldn't bother me too much, except I sent someone an email recently, and following the way I LEARNED how to properly reply, I put my reply under the quoted originals.

The person called me on the phone and said they got my email but that I didn't write anything in reply. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

So, as I wrote before, I'm getting CDL. Class is almost finished. I'll be taking the skills test at DOT on Tuesday! Hope I don't get too nervous and mess up.

Anyway, I'm so excited about something I just learned. I've gotten a few speeding tickets in that Mitsubishi Mirage my girlfriend has, it's a little speed demon car.

I was really worried those tickets would hurt my chances for getting hired. Well, my girlfriend got a letter from DOT about needing to renew her license... and a very interesting document was in with it... the speeds I was going for the posted limits, if you get pulled over for that, you just get a ticket. It DOES NOT go on my driving record. I wasn't driving fast enough to get a mark on my record! WOOT! Hee!

So yeah, clean MVR! I can probably go to work for nearly anyone now.

OK, originally this was a short post on Facebook, but it turned long, so now I have to post a full update on my life here, and post a link on my Facebook.

So, yeah, the dog business has been exceptionally shitty all year. We're not even filling up to capacity on holidays. So I concluded I need to get a better career.

After some conversations with my therapist, I decided on truck driving. Still in demand, I love driving, and most importantly: I got Wyoming Workforce Services to pay for the training (it's $5k.)

Anyway, so I got accepted into the class, started class on Monday the 6th. Here it is Tuesday, late morning, and according to them, I should be ready now to take the written CDL test at DMV to get my permit.

So I'm totally nervous about going to DMV and taking the test, so I'm camping out at Starbucks for a bit with some coffee and my laptop.

And on to the laptop with it's shitty battery that only last 30 minutes at the lowest power consumption settings. I really need a new one. But even with a new battery, I still need a way to charge it on the road. So I bought a 150W inverter for the car last night. Works for about 2 seconds then cuts off. So I took it back, very happy I didn't buy one over the internet. I think after I take the CDL test, I'll try to find a better one here in Cheyenne. :)

So me and Heather did some work on the other house which is for sale. Some painting, little cleaning up, mostly painting. So we get everything we wanted to do done and get in the car. As we get in, two other cars pull up across the street. A well dressed lady gets out of one, I'm already pulling away but it seems interesting, so I stop again. A family gets out of the other car. They're all going to our house.

Heather is talking to me, and I shhh her. And I'm watching behind us... the nicely dressed lady is opening the front door to the house. How weird and cool is that? We JUST finished and were JUST about to drive away and some people came to see the house. Talk about perfect timing!

I'm sure we all know about the classic check scam. Someone contacts you, tells you they have all this money, all you have to do is deposit the check, keep some amount of it and wire the rest back to them. It's old and worn out.

But wait, it's reinvented! Heather had posted an advertisement for our house for rent on craigslist.org. Well some guy responded to it. I was very suspicious when he complained he could not open our rental application and lease agreement documents. I even saved them in a compatible format and resent them.

He still could not open (ha ha, right!) the documents. Anyway, so, we get this mysterious check, sent UPS over night (that had to be expensive!) It's from health insurance company and it's for a lot of money. At first, we were extremely puzzled. Why from an insurance company? Is it a mistake? Let's keep the money, it's an insurance company, they have lots of money. I never said I'm the world's most honest person.

But then Heather checked her email and interestingly enough, our mystery rental applicant informs us he's sent his deposit and first month's rent via UPS overnight. The value of the check he said he sent, and the value we received didn't match, but it still started to fit together, especially when he said in his email that we should deposit the check IMMEDIATELY, take our deposit and first month's rent out and wire the rest of the money to the person he's purchasing furniture from. Haha, check scam!

Regardless of my knowing of such scams, we had no intention of taking the money without a signed and completed rental application and lease agreement. Also, since we run the dog kennel, I have a check scanner on my desk to validate checks from customers (and process them electronically if I wish.) The check has an invalid MICR number and is totally bogus.

But wait, the plot thickens! I hate scammers. I hate them in MMORPG's and I hate them even more in REAL LIFE. I want to shut this guy down. I know check fraud is a federal felony. Maybe we can track the guy down. Probably unlikely. It's a Yahoo email address. But we got a UPS package! It has a return address.

I looked up the company that it's from on the internet, it's United Stationers Supply Company. It came from their office in Tennessee. So I called them today. It was an interesting conversation, because it went like this:

ME: "Hello, my name is Larry, from Canine Clubhouse in Laramie Wyoming. I received a package from you guys. Is this the office at 455 Industrial Blvd, Suite A in La Vergne Tennessee?"

THEM: "Oh, yes it is, I know what you got, it's a bad check, someone stole our UPS account and is sending these things out all over the place."

DAMN! And here I was hoping we at least cost the scammer the UPS shipping fee. Oh well. I still feel I'm helping, these packages are coming from SOMEWHERE, and the more information about what's going on, the better the chance of tracking the guy down. I dunno though. UPS's fraud department is supposed to call me sometime, I gave them a ring too on the advice of the lady at United Stationers Supply Co. I feel sorry for them, the lady said every one of these packages is costing them $25. Fortunately UPS is reimbursing them. Though I imagine no one would reimburse us if we 'fell' for the scam. That's a little annoying.

I also seen in the Top 10 stories today, on CNN, a story about check scams.

For your reference.. the bad check:

I was sitting at my computer playing EVE and Heather piped up about people dumping dogs at shelters for stupid reasons.

She went on and on about how she thinks it's terrible that people dump a dog at a local shelter because of various perhaps questionable reasons. At least the reasons are questionable to her.

Things like the dog is too old, or the dog has behavior problems. Or the owners are moving. And I told her.. I've taken dogs to shelter too, for exactly the same reasons. Does that make me awful?

She said no. I mostly left the topic alone at that point. I didn't want to argue.

But this morning I'm sitting here, again, playing EVE. It's a quiet morning. And I thought about it some more.

Is it so wrong to take a dog to the shelter because you are unable or unwilling to care for it? If you're unwilling or unable to care for it, should you just have it euthanized? Or should you give it a potential chance in a shelter? Maybe the shelter would be so traumatic that it's better to euthanize?

As I give it more thought, who's to judge what are valid reasons and invalid reasons for taking a dog to a shelter? I'm of the school that a pet should bring it's owner joy and pleasure. That's why we take care of pets. Their purpose is to entertain us. We do after all give them food, shelter, and love. And we should try to provide for our pets needs in return for them giving us joy.

But when a pet no longer does it's end of the deal, what do we do? Is that a valid reason for euthanasia? Or taking it to a shelter? Even more importantly, what do we do when *WE* are unable to provide for our pets needs?

In conclusion, I've decided, based on previous actions, and thinking this over, that it should be perfectly legitimate and never frowned upon, regardless of any judgmental opinions to take a dog or any other pet to a shelter where they may or may not find a new home.

Having had to displeasure of seeing one too many "Animal Cops" episodes of the neglectful nature of people who could not or would not provide for their pets needs, taking a pet to the shelter seems a hell of a lot nicer than abandoning it, or leaving it tied to a chain 24/7.

Seems only right to write a little about Windows 7 RC.

I had a quiet day, so I decided to install it on my empty 500GB SATA drive. Other than some minor problems with my blank media, the installation process was smooth, easy, and came with a VERY delightful surprise.

After installation completed, my new Windows desktop just came right up. I didn't even have to reboot, it was ready to go. That was pretty cool.

In fact, the restart demon of Windows seems to have been pummeled quite a bit. Very few restarts were needed through the process of installing things. There was only one driver I had to install manually, which was my video driver, and this installed through the upgrade driver choice in the device manager.

Later I found it was also a recommended update from Windows Update. This means the drivers for my motherboard, UPS, printer, various USB devices, CDROM drive, network adapter, etcetc were all automatic and never required my manual attention. Very cool.

As far as compatibility goes, I added 2 games and 2 major applications and a handful of minor ones. One game required I go find my DirectX 9 Redist package and install it. It now runs flawlessly, the other game ran fine out of the box.

Office 2007 installed with no noticeable problems. Though Outlook did crash once for reasons I don't know. Quickbooks 2007 also installed with no problems, it updated fine with the manual updater I have for it. I even did some transactions with it today, and added some appointments in Outlook. Everything peachy. Additionally, after getting Thunderbird installed, my mate sent me a large PowerPoint document, which I viewed. Worked no problems.

I did have trouble with X-Win32 6.1 working. I'm terrible, it's pirated, as is just about everything I use. Well, the crack didn't work anymore. Dunno why. I've had problems with it in the past, it's just very touchy. A new version of X-Win32 (I haven't upgraded it in years, I had 6.1, now I have 9.1) solved that problem.

AntiVirus also works with no complaints, no problems. Using Avast Personal Edition. I expected this not to work with Windows 7, but it does. Daemon Tools virtual DVD drive also works, despite a warning from Windows 7 (several in fact) that it may not work. I only proceeded because there was a release note on the site that they corrected a known issue with Windows 7 RC.

StarDock's Fences does seem to have issues. It installs and works fine... until I changed the background of my desktop. This broke it. Rebooting seems the only cure. So the automatic slideshow of different desktop wallpapers is out. Nice feature that, I'll add.

The way folders are organized with these 'libraries' is still a bit puzzling to me. I haven't entirely gotten my head wrapped around how it's designed to work. But I'll figure it out eventually. Migrating settings from XP proved fairly simple (to me at least.) One annoying thing, was how 7 is forcing me into modifying all the permissions and occasionally even ownership on folders and files on the XP drive. I highly doubt XP will even work properly now.

So, all in all, Windows 7 seems like a winner. There are some popups about programs changing stuff that grow old after a while. But I imagine once I get my system all ship shape and just go about my daily use, they'll no longer be noticed much. The new Media Player 12 is so minimalistic (at least when I double clicked a movie on my XP drive) that I've not bothered to install VLC just yet. I like a minimalistic player. A slider to fast forward and rewind. A play, stop and pause button and a volume control. It has this and not a lot more. At least by default.

I really don't like the start menu. In XP I always tweaked my start menu to be basically the same as the Windows 2000 start menu. Doesn't seem to be a way to do that with Windows 7. But I can live with this start menu. It's not horrid, it's just not what I'm used to.

Many of the UI's effects and "bells and whistles" are neat. Not necessary, but they're neat. Performance is fantastic despite all these fancy "bells and whistles" so I'm not going to complain.

Oh yes, last part, networking. This required the most effort. My mate is still on XP and my Linux box uses Samba, and this 'Home Network' junk is just... I dunno what to make of it. I just want my old shares to work, and the printer to be shared from my system to others. A quick search on the web directed me to a security policy setting to change. Once done, the system immediately found all network resources and automatically shared the printer with the XP machine. Perfect!

Then there was some trouble with name resolution on my domain. Basically, the machines INSIDE my network need to use the private addresses for my domain. It was doing DNS and getting the external address, thereby redirecting my local network machines to the modem's address. I replaced the 'hosts' file with a copy from the linux server, but it didn't fix it. A reboot was required. After that, all seems peachy.

So, the finale: I like it. Windows 7 seems to have was Vista/2008 lacked, and lacks what made Vista annoying. The biggest thing, Windows just feels ready to upgrade to. It has enough new features, its just as fast, and brings a lot of new goodies to the table. I think I'm ready to leave XP behind. I'll be sure to pirate a copy of the real deal when it comes out. Sorry Microsoft, good job, but I'll still never pay your prices.

One more thing, I never got or tried out the XP emulation VM thing. Have no need for it with my applications.

I almost feel bad. Me and a friend of mine were discussing my Seagate 500GB SATA drive and the fact the third one apparently has failed.

Well, after talking about the system a bit, he suggested maybe I got too much on my power supply. Two DVD recorders, two hard drives.

I thought about this for a while, and decide to put the 500GB SATA drive back in the system, and disconnect my older DVD recorder. Figured it couldn't hurt.

Well, so far, it's back to 'normal', passes all the SeaTools tests, passes SMART, and appears generally healthly and normal.

Well, during all this it dawned on me. When this all start? Early February. Not too long after I bought the DVD-DL recorder as an xmas gift from my SO.

Yeah, that tipped the power supply. Now why it affected ONLY the new SATA hard drive, and not either DVD recorder, or the Seagate PATA drive is beyond me. But the proof is the system's current state. A drive that "failed" wildly last week seems to be working perfectly again.

So I take it back, for two reasons. I bought TWO of these exact same drives, one for me, one for my SO. The one in her computer has never had a single problem. And it appears to be something about my own system that's caused problems for the ones I've had. I do feel bad now, shipping back two drives as 'failed.' and there was probably nothing wrong with them. But honestly, I was looking at my system with this 3rd drive. Just as my friend had trouble believing I'd gotten three bad drives in a row, I was too, I just wasn't seeing anything wrong.

Probably mostly to do with the fact I don't do computers professionally anymore, and only have old out-dated experience with system building to rely on. 500W power supply seemed like plenty for my needs. Guess it's not.

So disregard my previous entry. ST3500360AS drives appear to be fine. As far as I'm concerned, the two I shipped back were fine too. And this one appears to be fine. And the one in my SO's computer has never had a problem. And honestly, the ST3500360A (this is the PATA version I've had for about a year and a half)) has been a great drive too.

A while ago you might have noticed my complaint about the Seagate 500GB drive failure times 2.

Well, #3 drive is has been here for a few weeks, and I replied to my own comment that it might be my Intel ICH9 causing the trouble and hooking it upto my JMicron SATA controller. And it working.

Yeah, it did, for a while, not anymore. I bought an APC UPS a couple days ago and had to power down everything to get it setup.

Upon powering up, the Seagate 500GB SATA drive failed SMART (BIOS reported.) And when Windows attempted to boot from my primary drive, it got stuck. I can only assume it got stuck trying to read the partition table from the SATA drive cuz the SATA drive has all Linux partitions.

Goddamn annoying. I don't care how long I have to wait on hold, I will be giving someone an earful on Monday, three bad drives in a row is outrageous. I know it's not my system, I was suspicious about the ICH9 thing all along, since my DVD-DL recorder is connected to the ICH9 (it's SATA too.) and it's never given me a hint of trouble.

At this point, I must highly recommend AGAINST buying the Seagate ST3500630AS. I dunno what they did wrong with this model, but it's a piece of shit.

Realized I don't have any recent pictures of my two dogs (I only have 2 now) on here. So here's one of both of them!

I glanced outside today and noticed this. It's been very cold, windy and snowy the past 24 hours.

But I've never seen icicles that formed tilted. Freaky.

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What the hell is going on? Did America just turn into a police state all the sudden? I thought scary shit like this was going to go away when Shrub left the Office of the President!

Several days ago, I read this on /. about a data center being raided and FBI just taking everything in sight, regardless of who owns it: http://tech.slashdot.org/article.pl?sid=09/04/03/231220

Then today I read this about the Phoenix AZ police raiding some bloggers house on some pretty shakey grounds regardless of what really going on: http://carlosmiller.com/2009/04/02/phoenix-police-raid-home-of-blogger-whose-writing-is-highly-critical-of-them/

You know when I read the 1st one, I was sure it was an April Fools joke, but it's not.

WTF? Maybe it's time to get the fuck out of this country. Maybe move to Mexico or Canada, or to Europe, or ANYWHERE where scary shit like this doesn't happen. VERY SCARY!

This is a screen shot of an opinion poll on CNN.COM's site, taken at about 6:35pm MDT:

Another good article, this one on CNN.COM: http://www.cnn.com/2009/POLITICS/03/31/cafferty.legal.drugs/

I bought a new Seagate 500GB SATA drive for my birthday. Well, it started to fail early February. Thankfully, nothing important was lost.

So I sent it back to Seagate. I mean this is why I buy Seagate. Five year warranty. And like Maxtor drives, they tend to exhibit problems before completely dying. Gives one time to collect data off of them. Not that I don't make backups, but it's still a nice "feature."

I got the replacement about two weeks ago. I got 200GB left (this is oddly enough, a result of the 500GB drive failure, as I dumped everything off my PATA drive to DVD's to make room for Windows) on my PATA 500GB drive, so I just put the replacement in my desk drawer for a while. I finally got around to putting it in my PC last weekend. Well, I think it was Monday, or Tuesday, it made a funny noise and Linux spewed a strange error about having to 'hard reset' the drive and reconnecting it to the SATA bus. But it proceeded to work normally.

Well, today, I was gunna do a friend of mine a favor and work on this linux live-cd he has for work. It's having problems loading X properly under a VM. I was hoping I could tweak with it a bit and make it work for him. But I need squashfs. I really don't wanna tinker with my server's kernel, so I have Linux on the SATA drive of my desktop. Anyway, so I boot up, start fidgeting. And it's doing that thing! Big click noise, dead for 10-20 seconds, then Linux bitches it had to hard reset it and it comes back. So I'm thinking, "This is not a good thing." Reboot to Windows, grab SeaTools. It's failing both "Short DST" and "Long DST." ARGH! So back it goes.

I put a little note in the box: PLEASE SEND ME A WORKING DRIVE, NOT ANOTHER FAILING ONE.

Honestly, it's in their interest to send me a good drive. My warranty is only about 5 months old. I can play the shipping back and forth game for a long time.

Well, I just got out of the mental ward at the hospital. Spent 3 days there after going basically crazy on Friday night/Saturday morning.

I tried to drive drunk, something I NEVER!! EVER!! do! I tried to move out drunk, I flipped out on girlfriend. I'm just thankful, praising the fates, some sliver of restraint, whatever, that I failed to drive off our property, and did not actually hurt anyone. I did hurt my computer slightly, which I'm glad was the only semi-casualty of my idiocy. I guess I was rough with it when put it in the car, popped the CPU fan loose, well, it was majorly overheating and auto-shutting down. Fixed that promptly. I know, it might seem pretty goofy to mention that in a post of this magnitude, but I feel like mentioning it.

I was both homicidal and suicidal. It was the scariest thing I've ever had to sit and reflect on for three days. I had a plan, I'd been pondering it for a few weeks (a suicidal one), because my life was just derailing in a hurry. But I needed this visit to the mental ward. I mean, I needed the cops to come over and take me away for a few days. Nice wake up call. I did not particularly enjoy my stay in the hospital. But it was... a healthy thing to happen to me. I learned a lot of new things, and had a lot of time to reflect on what happened, what I did, in a less hostile environment than jail.

Who knows, MAYBE this time I'll get a clue and a grip and a life, and stop drinking, FOR GOOD. I told both my girlfriend and my mother, I may not get another chance. I need to stay sober, not for a month, not for a week, not for a year, FOREVER. I don't know if I'll get another chance to get this right. I've had plenty of wake up calls, plenty of waking up in jails and hospitals, to know damn well this is a serious problem.

I hope this time I'll stick to my sobriety plan, and hope this time, the doctors have my mental problems diagnosed correctly and have me on the correct medication to help me deal with my life with out drinking.

I can't tell myself I'm not an alcoholic, yet I don't honestly think I am either. Because I still firmly believe alcoholism is a symptom of my mental illness, and if I can get that illness properly treated, I won't feel the need to drink to treat it my own way.

I'm back home, everything is coming back together, I have to go to the mental clinic tomorrow to schedule appointments. I have an appointment with a specialist in Boulder next week as well (this was arranged before I flipped out, it's very important to me.)

As far as me and my girlfriend's future, I cannot say. I don't know. Right now, things are OK, but the problems remain unresolved. I think with some time, my own illness being treated, and talking to this specialist, most of these problems will resolve, hopefully to a mutually agreeable satisfaction. I cannot, no one can, guarantee they will be resolved to a point that is curative to our core relationship problems. But I'm taking the steps to see if that's possible.

Sadly, the diagnosis is what I've suspected for at least 15 years, and was being treated for (with a different medication, which I think was ineffective) in the past. Bi-polar. I've really thought all along this is my problem. I think I've been this way since early teens, I can reflect on my life and see the roller-coaster type pattern over and over, I even seen it in grade school. But I never knew anything about it, until 15 years ago, but the people at the clinic I was going to were not very helpful, they kept changing the diagnosis, they kept changing my meds around, trying this, trying that. Groups, individual sessions, depression meds, bi-polar meds. It was very aggravating. And not very therapeutic.

Now I'm on a new medication, just started it on Sunday evening, so obviously I won't be gaining the benefits from it for several weeks. And sadly, as I write this entry, I feel after hitting the bottom of a long depressed state, I'm flipping to the manic state. Nothing I can really do but make productive use out of it I guess.

So... yeah...

So, it pretty much decided, I would depart Wyoming and my girlfriend sometime this week.

A wrench. The Blazer me and her just had repaired broke. The engine is toast. $1k out the window. It needs a new engine, $3.5k quoted by the repair shop. Not good. Not one bit. I've advised my girlfriend to have the vehicle towed back to our property to sit and rot until we either decide to put a new engine in it, or trash it. It *MUST* be worth SOMETHING. We put a new transmission in it a few months before the engine had a problem.

Anyway, I didn't want to write about our Blazer. Or *THE* Blazer. Sorry. Anyway, so ok, I was planning to leave. My girlfriend/fiance/SO/whatever was going to give me the dying Toyata Coralla and the trailer it's capable of towing so I could leave. That won't be happening because of what I just described.

I had planned to get my mother to rent me a U-Haul and just fucking leave anyway. Because frankly, the stress of all the shit I have to deal with is CRUSHING me. And it's not just the relationship problems. It's the finances. It's work. It's my dogs. It's her animals. It's every fucking thing. Each alone is minor. All piled up, it's severe.

So, me and her talked. We've been talking on and off since Friday. Her sister is bringing out a car which she's purchased. And then gunna hang out for an unknown amount of time. This is in two weeks. So after much talking, I've agreed I'll stay for that two weeks.

I'm not optimistic about anything changing with our relationship in two weeks when we've been trying to relight our flame for three fucking years. But I've nothing to lose and a Toyota and trailer to gain. So I'm staying, for two weeks.

**Note to self: Written while intoxicated.**

Seems like this all I write about anymore, doesn't it?

Anyway, me and my girlfriend went to our weekly counseling again yesterday and she said she really didn't love me any more and it was probably time to move on.

It was pretty painful to hear, but at the same time it was also a relief. We've been struggling with making this relationship "work" for quite some time, and it hasn't really been working too well.

Let me clarify a little. We get along great, we work together well, we manage the household well, we don't really fight about anything. But we also do not have sex, and we sleep in separate rooms. Obviously that's not a healthy relationship. I wish there was something I could do, I wish there was a magic button I could push to fix this lack of sex (it's my fault, I'm not going to go into the reasons here.) However I cannot. It's why we've been going to counseling.

So, we kinda decided yesterday, I'd pack up and leave next week after she gets her Blazer registered (we just had it repaired.) She'd give me the dying Toyota and the trailer so I could take my things. Seemed like a good plan to me.

But I woke up this morning, and I laid in bed for a few minutes and as I was starting to get up and start my day, I thought to myself, "I betcha she's changed her mind now." Of course she has. And I have no idea what to do now. Do I continue to try to make this relationship which hasn't for so long?

Do I just stick around because it's cozy, it's stable, it's safe? Or do I leave, put this all behind me, put aside the tiny thread of hope there might be and head back to Nevada and try to start my life again on my own?

Well, we've an appointment with the counselor again tomorrow. There's nothing to be lost by staying here. Trouble is... I'm not very hopeful there's anything to be gained either.

And yes, I post about this all the time, so you know just how long this relationship has been crumbling. A very long time.

Found this article on /.

Enjoy.

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